Post by Energy on May 28, 2017 7:31:53 GMT
Log entry 1, still alone, still no one is around, still the hole grows… the one in my undying loneliness, and the one in the south, I think it's probably around 45 miles long now… mostly just guessing off of the fact that it's at the forests now which were originally like 5 miles away from the last point it was at a month ago, but that was also guessing due to the fact that a year ago it became impossible for me alone to measure since I don’t really have a way to probably do so anylonger. On a brighter note I found food that's not all moldy, yay… it's nearing moldy now though mom used to say it's just some extra green in my diet and counted as a vegetable so I could eat some dessert now too… though now I know she was just trying to force me to eat so I wouldn't starve and was trying to make me feel better with candy… Here soon all the food I find will likely be just mold… I’m hoping that maybe I can find any salvageable seeds or animals that can produce food products without needing to harm them so that I have more of a supply for food… but with each day that passes the chance and likelihood of that happening dwindles just a little more. I just… I think in the next 3 years… if I can't find anyone else I’m going to end it… either by not having any food left or… by other means… Sometimes I’m scared I don't even remember how to talk… I even started resorting to practicing a greeting every morning just so I won't forget… but… 6 years without any contact with anyone or anything...I don't think I can keep it up. But for now I’ll keep fighting, it's what everyone would want. I didn’t survive for no reason after all. I’ve also decided to write in you, some random book I found in the cubby hole I was put in when the bombs went off. I hope that it it gives me something to do to keep my mind focused… if not then if anyone ever reads any of this… have fun reading my decent into madness. That will sure be fun for both of us. Right now I’m just trying to distract myself until the sun goes down which is my time when I eat, I found for myself personally that eating when the sun is nearing the middle of the sky and when it is all the way down and the moon is rising is the best times for me to eat to help ration out my food. To nights lovely meal of the night is crushed up noodles, in cheese powder topped with a can of out dated tuna that somehow smells worse than normal tuna. Hopefully the juices makes it taste less dry… and I can pretend that I'm not totally out of clean water at the moment. Food of the gods right here folks, bet you’re all super jealous! Bluh… doubt it… especially when you would be imagining that you would be meat eating it, and tuna sorta makes me dry heave for what feels like hours after each bite sooo I doubt you wish you had that going on… unless you are in an even worse position. If that's the case my best wishes to you, and here have half of my gross dinner. Or at least its imaginary self since I can’t actually share it with you due to you not being here. Sun is still not down so let's pretend I am talking to someone. Hi, how are you? Read any good food labels lately? I’m fond of the blood red skies, are you? DO you know the color of the skies before the war? I kinda have forgotten at this point since I was only a-... well an even younger kid back then. How many windows up on buildings can you climb before needing to break the window to rest on the inside till continuing up to the roof can you go at a time? I can go 25 on a good day. DO you know how to swim? Would you ever want to teach me? Are you a dick? Are you funny? I found dicks to be great friends when they were funny cause that meant they were tolerable… You know when you take that in the less mature manner… that phrase just gets… weird… Oh the sun is close enough down now. I’ll right in you more tomorrow and let you know if I spot anything of note. Sleep well random person who I can not see but is reading all my inner thoughts that I just threw down onto paper, nice to not meet you. NOTESThis log can be found in character at the Jump City Docks in California. Please pm me or tag me if you find it in character so i can edit this note to say its new location. Please note these papers can not be harms or tampered with in either way pm me if you need more info about them for rp reasons. |